I'm feeling some pain tonight. Once again, I'm typing this with a myriad of emotions swirling around my brain. But writing has been therapeutic for me ever since Donald Trump came to power.
Thank you for allowing me an outlet where I can share my innermost frustrations, Bakersfield Californian readership.
The political battlefield can get a little messy. A constant bombardment of negative emails is attacking my inbox. That, along with the occasional insult of my character, and, believe it or not, threat on my safety.
But this time it's different. This moment in time finds me beaten, battered and bloodied. Why you ask?
My president is a racist.
The events that have unfolded over the last week have finally confirmed it. And it hurts.
Watching Donald Trump attempt to find a moral equivalency between the KKK marchers and the counter-protestors who opposed them in Charlottesville, Va., was an amazing public display of ignorance.
One was clearly there to promote hate and the other was there to protest against it.
One would think hearing the Nazis shouting the n-word and the chants of "Jews will not replace us" was the dead giveaway.
And one might also think if the "alt-left" is a group built on fighting bigotry and racism, then the "alt-right" is built on reinforcing hate-filled belief systems.
Identifying the cryptic racism of Donald Trump was pretty easy to decipher. Stevie Wonder could see it coming.
Trump was sued for housing discrimination for having his employees write the letter "C" on applications when "colored" people applied for housing.
He prematurely implicated five teens of color (four African-American and one Latino) in the racially charged Central Park Five rape case‚ taking out a full page ad calling for the death penalty. New York eventually paid those young men $41 million in a 2014 settlement once DNA evidence exonerated them.
He's also the father of the birther movement. He strategically worked to delegitimize the first African-American president of the United States starting back in 2011.
He's also the same man who was clamoring for Barack Obama to utter the words "radical Islamic terrorism" — yet he won't say "white supremacist."
Trump's proven paper trail of prejudice is decades in the making. But I'm not writing solely about him. I'm also writing about you.
Like a lot of other people of color, Trump has made me feel like a lifelong tourist on American foreign soil.
Roughly 80 percent of the Republican base still supports Donald Trump. Still. Even white evangelicals like Jerry Falwell Jr. asserted that Trump made a "bold, truthful statement" about Charlottesville. Wow.
And you sit on your hands. Quietly watching. And in most cases, defending it.
You won't defend people of color in the face of racism?
You will fight for the traitorous confederate flag, yet lose your marbles when a Mexican flag is flown in America?
You will berate and belittle Colin Kaepernick for kneeling during the national anthem, yet refuse to defend minorities in the face of blatant hatred?
White evangelicals, where are you?
My black ancestors built the infrastructure of this country literally with their blood, sweat and tears. Their laborious work includes the U.S. Capitol, Wall Street and the White House.
Hispanic immigrants cultivated this country through agriculture, food handling, hospitality work and more. They continue to be the lifeblood of America. Our largest and fastest-growing minority.
The Chinese built the railroads of the West.
And this country was stolen from Native Americans.
We have just as much a right to be here as you do. Period.
Where is your patriotism?
Have you been selling us a bill of goods since 1776?
So all men aren't created equal?
Is this the same patriotism that found African-American WWII soldiers fighting for America and returning home to segregation and threats of being lynched?
Selective patriotism is still racism.
"In a racist society it is not enough to be non-racist. We must be anti-racist." - Angela Davis
My president is a racist. Your silence makes you complicit. Defend us, American family. Fight for the red, white and blue. Prove to us that Ronald Reagan's vision of America being a "shining city on a hill" wasn't conceptual, it was factual.
I love my country. But why won't my country love me back?
Danny Morrison is a radio host at the New 103.9 The Beat, host of the 'Danny Morrison Media Show" video podcast, mentor and motivational speaker. His columns appear here every Tuesday; the views expressed are his own. Reach him at email@example.com.